Friday, August 15, 2008
how is it, that i know i need you?
how is it, that i know you will be there when i need you?
but how is it, that i also know i shouldn't be needing you?
how is it, that i know it aint the reason you are here for me...
how i wish, that i could stop lying.
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
im in desperate need for a break.
or mayb i juz need to get away. from him.
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Wednesday, April 02, 2008
i m fucking pissed.
i spent like 120bucks on her bday and she compares it w someone else's presents and says like their presents damn sweet and mine lose to their.
WTF.
and e only thing tt she talks to me online abt is this. seriously man. m i tt unimpt?!
get lost. i feel damn unappreciated.
ok fine, i admit i didnt spend a lot of time thinking of her present as compared to prv yrs. i mean, dec/jan period i was OBVIOUSLY occupied. duh right.boyf, or rather ex-boyf, is more impt. (in fact i was alr thinking of like v-day present. and i was spending so much time w him, how to hv time to think of her presents? no time to study even. ) feb/march my heart was still preoccupied.
lidat where got time to think!!!! and my creative juices also will run out de lor...
haiya. i wish i didnt put in so much effort right from e beginning. den i wouldnt b in such shit now. zzz.
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Friday, March 28, 2008
i feel like such an idiot. so retarded, and petty.
but im happy now. although i found out more,but im happier already.
proves a lot. (:
i think, i've finally found my REAL closure. i think.haha.
for once theres a happy post at this blog. (:
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
i feel so fucking used.
damn.
this world is such a bleak place.
i feel so fucking hateful.
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
OMG. PARTNER I TOTALLY MISS U LIKE CRAZY.
hahaha. i typed a SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER emo post on my blog but i dun dare to post it.haha. cuz its too damn emo for it to exist on my blog, and it would juz b publicising my problems. which no one is really supposed to know. and i dun dare to tell e ppl who know, cuz i dun want to show my weaker side. but partner i will show u if u ask me. haha. i think u might not have seen such an emo part of me. its juz...extreme.hahaha. i think i sound like i got r a p e d or smth. BUT I DIDNT LAHH. i juz felt cheated haha and i think they work the same way.
all i do is pretend that im alright. mayb i m, juz a little. but e pain is still there.
of love and heartache.
of longing and missing.
i want to turn back time and do smth diff, tt would probably make this end up better.
like, tell HER abt us. mayb it'll kinda deter her...a bit. i dunno. lol
like, b more firm. with the both of us.
like, do smth to prove how much he meant.
but aiyahh. wtv la. if it wasnt meant to be, it never will. if it was meant to be, things will work itself out.
ya, easier said than done.haha. i always say and say and say. but i dun do wad i say. disgusting.
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
sugar and spice;
your words are lies.
i'm moving on.
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